Sometimes this path seems impossible. I have yet to find a post or read a blog where the person is in the midst of learning a thing and is totally frustrated. The posts I find are after success, where the goal is accomplished and the writer is ripe with victory. In fact, that's where I want this post to come from, where I stand on top of the mountain of effort, triumphant and bursting with the pride of accomplishment. Instead, I'm hanging my head and gritting my teeth in frustration. This morning I feel so low that I can't think of anything other than my defeat in attempts at javascript functions.
What I want is so simple, I want to load a video to a div tag using javascript. No, I don't want some jquery plug to fill the gap and do the coding for me. This is important that I be able to execute this on my own, but after more than five attempts and greater than six hours of research I have yet to get it done. The snide comment here would be something like ' Well just give up then', or ' Not everyone can be a developer, it's good to know your limits'. Well I say "SCREW THAT!!!", this is so frustrating that it's causing me heartburn and I'm getting a headache, I'm literally pissed off that after dozens of hours of javascript classes and exercises, dozens of pages I've read, yet I'm crippled in my attempts to write the simplest of code.
Right here, right now, even though I'm upset, I know that I won't quit. Of course I'll overcome this, but I want to note this here; that there are times I want to throw in the towel and just walk away. It's myself that won't let me, I want to be able to write code that works, in order to build things on the internet that contribute to the world I live in. This is the path that I've chosen and even though it's beating me down, I'll survive this and reach the victory that awaits.
Cheers,
Jon
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